Went to a support meeting today. Very informative even though it was for both Lap-band and Roux en Y. Actually learned why one would chose one over the other. There was a lot of people there that had not made up thier minds on what to get. I met some people that where having surgery in just a few days. Can't wait to see them next month. I also seen a former patient of mine. I treated her while I was doing my clinicals three years ago. I was a hour away from home. The odds of me ever seeing this person was about nill and remembering her about impossible. I've treated thousands of patient since then. She remembered me too.

Okay, I may as well tell you a little about myself. I'm 36 and single. Female. Physical Therapist Assistant and Director of Rehab at a rehabillitaion center. Overweight since 8-9ish. Have obesity on both sides of my family. My father was killed by a drunk driver when I was 8, hence the weight gain. And the pshycological issues that I need to work on with the pshycologist. I tend to be afraid of relationships and getting close. I know I've used my fat to distance myself from people. I'm shy until you get to know me. I'm the kind of person that can be in a crowded room and be lonely. I have a niece whose 3 that I love to death so you will probably hear a lot about her. I'm doing this for her too. I don't want her to remember me fat. So, I better hurry up and start losing. I also hate that I can't keep up with her. She always wants to play. After I keep her I'm exhausted. I also have no confidence when it comes to men. I have never had any problem getting the attention. But I can't imagine getting intimate in a new relationship right now. Men from my past are another story. I have a ex-boyfriend that I recently reconnected with. I don't know where that may go but I'm comfortable with this person. He has never had a problem with my weight. In fact, I mentioned getting rid of this big ole butt the other day and he said no way. The thing is he is skinnier that a rail and I feel really big with him. I use to be able to wear his size 29 inch waist pants. So, that is my goal to be able to get "back in his pants". LOL! Yes, I do have a pair of his swim shorts from ten years ago. He probably doesn't know I kept them. I think they are actually a boy's size medium. Wow...just got them out. They fit my thigh but they are stretchy. On that note...bye