Have you seen the ticker inching downward? I've lost 6 pounds since gettng home from vacation last week. YEAH me! This is the lowest I've been since June of 2004. When I graduated from PTA school. My co-workers haven't even seen me at this weight. I have a fellow lap-bander at work called me skinny this week. I'm hardly skinny but I'm glad she noticed. She was one of the reasons I decided to get the band. I didn't even know our insurance covered lap band until she got it. She did great losing 70 pounds in 9 months and then she got pregnant. She really wanted to lose more before becoming pregnant but shit happens. She was surprised but happy because infertility was one of the reasons she got the band.

I'm a little sad today. It's 4th of July and I'm not doing anything. I'm tired of being alone. Just as I wrote that my friend Lori called and she wasn't doing anything either. So, now I don't feel so bad. I had tried to call her earlier and see if she wanted to go see firework. And she didn't answer. I thought she was out doing somethng exciting without me! But no she was just outside and didn't hear the phone. We may go to the Lake tomorrow for a little while. My cousin has a place on the Lake but we aren't as close anymore since we don't work together. I've been bummed that she hasn't called and invited me up. My friend Lori is also my cousin's aunt. (Oppisite sides of the famly) Anyway, we're going up tomorrow night. My cousin is not formal and expects people to just drop in but I always feel weird not being invited. Guess I've always been a little parnoid about making sure people want me around. I'm always afraid I'm in the way.