I had a fill yesterday. I think this may be my sweet spot. It may be to early to tell but I'm satisfied with a lot less. I almost thought I was too tight this morning. I took my vitamins on an empty stomach and about 5 minutes later I got sick to my stomach. I gagged several times but in the end I only had a little bit of spit come up. I was okay when I ate a 1/2 cup of pudding later. That 1/2 cup really filled me up. I'm belching a lot. Sorry to be so graphic but this is the really life of a lap bander. From what I've heard the belching is pretty normal. I'm reminded that I need to chew, chew, chew.

I hope this speeds up my weight loss. I'm starting to feel like a failure. People have stopped asking me if I'm losing. My mom asked and you can hear the apprehension in her voice when she asks. I had such a dramatic change in the first few weeks. Loss 19 pounds in about 10 days. Then a gain during the holidays. I haven't been on track for more than a few days since the holidays. I feel like at the right fill level I can lose again. Plus I'm doing a lot more exercise. Training for my half marathon. I have 2-1/2 months till i need to "run" 13.1 miles. Geesh! I'm not worried about the distance so much as the speed. I can walk it if I haven't mastered running by then but I have to be able to walk it fast. There is a 4 hours time limit.