Mixed bag

I'll fill you in on the latest and greatest in my life.

Work is good. A new employee started today and has been able to relieve a lot of my stress. I manage the therapy dept in a skilled nursing facility. We've been without a Occupational Therapist for 3 months. So, I've had to beg, borrow and steal OT staff from other facilities. There hasn't been anyone "in charge" of my OT department so everything has fallen to me. I now have a OT for a 13 week commitment. That will get us through the holidays. Maybe she'll like us enough to become a permenant employee.

Mom is still just in limbo. She had a ultrasound on the area that showed up on the MRI in her right breast and they couldn't find anything. So the next step is a MRI/biopsy on Tuesdaythe 27th to see if they can find it again on the MRI. I'm hoping it was just a fluke on the MRI and there isn't anything there. I can't believe we have to wait another week. The MRI tech is on vacation. On the husband front, my stepdad wants to come home. He's decided he made the biggest mistake of his life and he's racked with guilty that mom is going through this without him. But mom is sticking to her guns and not allowing him to come home. He hurt her alot and she just can't deal with her marriage problems right now.

My vacation was much needed. It wasn't the best time I've ever had but it was good to get away. The weather was cold and the race didn't have the outcome I wanted. But I started on my Christmas shopping at the outlet mall. And I got to talk to one of my old guy friends on the phone on the long car ride.

The scale is going down! I lost weight during vacation. I can't really explain it but food has just been easy for the last week. I've been getting my water in. Exercise will hopefully follow. Exercise is usually not a problem for me but the weather has me having to shift gears from outside exercise to indoors. Having said that we are having a warming trend and I think I'll walk outside tonight.

Well....that's all for now.

More bad news

I have so much to news to add but no motivation to write it all down. We found out that mom's lump is cancer. We met with the surgeon on Tuesday and he sounded hopeful. We talked about a lumpetomy and radiation. But as a precaution he decided to do a MRI to make sure it was contained to one lump. Well, we got the results today.......another suspicious spot on the other breast. So, she's off to have a ultrasound on thursday and possible another biopsy. No surgery until they have all the facts. At this point, my mom wants me to go ahead and go on vacation. I go to Charlotte, NC every fall for 4 days for the NASCAR race. On one hand, I don't want to be far from home incase I'm needed. On the other hand, I really need a break. We probably won't have any word on the ultra sound until Monday. So, they won't be rushing her to surgery while I'm gone. The next few months may be rough. Maybe I need to get away and have a bit of fun while I can.

I know people go through this every day. Cancer is a common diagnosis. But I'm so scared. I lost my dad when I was 8 years old. So, I think I'm entitled to have my mom forever. My mom needs to be there when I find mr. right. She was always gong to walk me down the aisle. I want to give her a grandchild. I feel like I haven't done half the things I want to with my life and I want her to be there when I do these things.