More bad news

I have so much to news to add but no motivation to write it all down. We found out that mom's lump is cancer. We met with the surgeon on Tuesday and he sounded hopeful. We talked about a lumpetomy and radiation. But as a precaution he decided to do a MRI to make sure it was contained to one lump. Well, we got the results today.......another suspicious spot on the other breast. So, she's off to have a ultrasound on thursday and possible another biopsy. No surgery until they have all the facts. At this point, my mom wants me to go ahead and go on vacation. I go to Charlotte, NC every fall for 4 days for the NASCAR race. On one hand, I don't want to be far from home incase I'm needed. On the other hand, I really need a break. We probably won't have any word on the ultra sound until Monday. So, they won't be rushing her to surgery while I'm gone. The next few months may be rough. Maybe I need to get away and have a bit of fun while I can.

I know people go through this every day. Cancer is a common diagnosis. But I'm so scared. I lost my dad when I was 8 years old. So, I think I'm entitled to have my mom forever. My mom needs to be there when I find mr. right. She was always gong to walk me down the aisle. I want to give her a grandchild. I feel like I haven't done half the things I want to with my life and I want her to be there when I do these things.